All the Feels

How Do You Feel?

I feel-
the big floppy alligator tears and the vomit inducing waves of clarity- slowly- like fog burning off the Monterey bay.

I feel –
Trapped and small and afraid.

Same feelings over and over:
“Shuffle one” instead of “shuffle all”

I feel-
All the fragmented thoughts.
Does not compute.
Your startup disk is full.
Verify your disk.
Repair permissions.

As if permission was verified in the first place.

The memory bytes replay again and again and again and again

Not like the song from the Bird and the Bee.

No. This song is different-

Discordant.
Ugly.
Powerless.
Missing notes.
Forced.
Pounding, not tickling, the ivories.

There’s no catchy tune.

This is a “No-one-wants-to-hear-it but I have to play it anyway” song.

Just fucking “Let it go”.
Shake it off.

I have to feel all the feels
again and again and again and again.

Practice makes the heart grow stronger.

April 28, 2015

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